Well didn’t manage to write about what my GP said yesterday. He took my blood pressure and that is fine. He listened to my chest he said it sounds clear, so no infection. Just to use my inhalers to help. Told him I have been going to the gym and swimming as well. He was quite impressed and as a result he weighed me, I still weight less then last year which is good, but still have a way to go as my BMI is 27 and I want to lose 21lbs. I managed to have a little rant about the p-doc situation and the crisis team. As I got up to leave he said “but you always seem so cheerful” I said Majority of the time it’s fake! He said “oh, why?” Me- Because I have too. He kinda looked sheep-ish and I just said, see you later.
So neverrespected saw my post last night and as a result came to stay with me for the night. Ended up having a good nights sleep. Woke up about 1pm-ish.
Met my Bro and Jack for a bit. He just wanted to do what he wanted to do and I wasn’t really interested, we clashed and went our separate ways.
Just can’t be fucked to deal with people that are only interested in what they want! Fuck it!
Commented on a friends status, as her little girl has chicken pox and I mentioned about having a chicken pox party for her, like I did as a kid! Cuz it’s much better to get it when you’re small, anyway her twat of a bf always has something to say and he put dyllan grumpy mills. I just said if you can’t be nice when I comment I just wont fucking bother, as this is not the 1st time he’s had fucking something to say! So I have deleted my friend and said I’m ill can’t be dealing with the bullshit whatever, wanna talk imbox me. All I got was ok! they both can go fuck themselves!
Still feeling depressed and suicidal… but hey whatever, will just keep faking that smile on my face! People are so fucking blind and don’t notice the difference anyways
The thing that gave birth to me rang today. Just to say she was ill… and I give a fuck WHY! I don’t care you got a little rash and swollen hands and feet. TWAT!
Just sat feeling angry and depressed watching the opening of the Olympics. Iconic moment. But not very interesting. I will watch a few games, like gymnastics, woman’s football, maybe a bit of the woman’s running.
Going to the gym and for a swim tomorrow, maybe is will stir up some happy hormones and make me feel a little better.
I fancy a drink….. But that won’t help this depressive mood! will only exaggerate it.
Jack Jack looking all grown up with his new hair cut 🙂 Lil man will be 3 in 3 weeks time! Love you loads lil man :’) x