I’ve not really posted on here for the last few days as I have been out and about having great fun with Roxy pops.
Yesterday was the 1st year anniversary of my dads death. The day wasn’t as bad as I thought it might be, I thought I would be a total wreck, but I kept my composure all day. It was a day to celebrate my dads life, not to be sat about being all sad. I spent it with S and her two little ones Holly and Harry. I bought little haribo a new pushchair as his was busted! We took Roxy onto the beach, so she was running about sniffing everything and Holly was straight on the sand digging and making hills. I bought us all a yummy KFC for lunch! We went our separate ways after lunch as we were all really tired, especially Roxy.
Got home and chilled out for a little bit, then I decided to go into town and treat myself to some more skylanders and got some more little bits and bobs for Roxy and then went and got some dinner.
Had dinner and chilled out. Roxy and I then met up with my brother and his GF (very soon to be fiance.) and a few others. Then we all went to the pub and toasted a drink in dads memory. Which was nice that we did something. Had a good laugh as well. Then me and Roxy pop walked back and then chilled out!
Today has been less busy, I took Roxy out for the toilet this morning and when I got back I had another hour before I needed to leave for my 1:1 session so I curled up on the sofa with Roxy and had a nap.
My 1:1 session went really well, made another long term goal which is to let the scars on the top of my right arm heal and eventually have that area tattooed over. I haven’t self harmed for a few months now and I haven’t even had any urges! Which I am mega proud of myself with. I just keep telling myself, do I still want to be cutting when I’m 30? and the answer is always no! I am working my butt off to work towards all my current goals. I just ask myself will doing what I do get me to where I want to be? If the answer is no then I have to change what I’m doing.
After my 1:1 session I went into town as I had decided that now I have a dog I really should get myself a nice waterproof coat as I’m sure walking her in just a hoody when it’s pissing down with rain wont be any good for my health, so I spent £70 on a nice superdry coat. I was looking for some waterproof trousers, but all of them were way too long. So will keep looking.
I love coming home to an animal that is mega excited to see you! LOVE IT! 🙂 It’s nice to feel needed and wanted everyday.
I just chilled out this afternoon playing games on FB and watching TV, went out and got some dinner, did a load of washing, washed up the dishes. After dinner I played a good few hours of the new skylander game! Love it.
Thought I would spend some time on here before I take Roxy out for her last toilet break. OMG it is raining so hard out! I am really glad I got a nice new coat today. LMAO Roxy is making noises in her sleep! Soooo cute! 🙂
Feeling great! Really positive, working my butt of at my DBT skills. Love my life, love being able to treat friends and help them out.
Love you with all my heart dad and miss you more then anyone can ever know! 1/6/1960 – 30/10/11 ❤ You are my hero and my inspiration! You were an amazing man, my bestest of friends and a great father, you were taken from me far too soon, but hey God always needs more angels to help those of us that are left behind. I know you are walking with me every step of the way, I know I am never alone ❤
Tank girl x