Friday 10th May – It was a long difficult day.
I had my 1st session at the bipolar course. It went ok, we just went over group rules and learned a bit about everyone there. A few of them seemed a bit “weird” one was clearly on edge, which made me feel a bit uncomfortable. I am one of the youngest there in the group, there is one other young person and the rest are I’d say 40+ We were all sat on these really comfy sofa’s which made it hard to concentrate as I was so tired, so I took off my shoes and curled up and tried to listen. Towards the end of the group, the guy on the sofa next to me started to really bug me, he kept sniffing! URGH I wanted to punch him in the face, so irritating. After the group I got the bus back into town and waited outside Costa to meet the group of people attending the funeral.
1pm a group of us met outside Costa, a few of them got drinks. There wasn’t really space for all of us, so we ended congregating outside. I rounded everyone up and we all walked up to the church. The funeral was for Bruce, who was manager of an advice center for young people. He helped me lots over the last 10yrs. Such an amazing passionate man! I aspire to be like him in my work with young people. I feel so much for his family especially his 9 year old daughter, such a massive loss for such a young life. My heart truly goes out to her. The church and the service was lovely and at the end they played Rod Stewart Sailing, which was very fitting as Bruce was an amazing sailor, he won many awards.
After the funeral, I came home and had half an hour just to relax and have some alone time, it was really needed, I was so exhausted! But I had to go back out again, so I got my stuff together and my foxy girl and headed off to my friends house where I was looking after lil Ollie pie. It took an hour and half to get there! Bloody traffic, there was an accident. Only usually takes an hour. But got there to some yummy potato wedges 🙂 and pie and I watched Dr Who 🙂 I’ve really got into it since looking after lil man. But him to bed at 8pm and I just chilled out trying to stay awake. My friends came home, we chatted for a little while, but I didn’t stay long as I was just wanting to get home.
I got home just after 11pm. I watched t.v for a bit just to unwind, then I took my meds and snuggled down in bed. For once I slept really well! I actually felt rested when I woke up this morning.
I didn’t do a lot today. I mainly rested, which I think I needed to do after such a long busy week. I went to the post office to pick up a package my batman car magazine 🙂 I treated myself to some sweeties and got some dinner stuff. Took foxy out for a quick toilet break. Had a shower, I couldn’t have one till the afternoon because yet again I woke up to no water! Urgh I hate my housing association so much. I spent the rest of the day plonked on the sofa watching T.V. I did clear up a bit and do a load of laundry. Although I’ve felt a bit lonely and down, I needed this day of rest because it has helped my mind slow down a lot, which is good and I feel so much more rested then I have been feeling. Bedtime very soon.
Tank girl x