Happy New Year 2015 <3

Wow its 31st of December 2014. This year has gone so so fast.

Just a quick catch up and a short summary of 2014.

So yesterday my poor baby boy scrappy, had a really bad reaction to his worming tablet. He was so so sick for about 2 hours, I was so upset. It was so horrible my poor thing. But he did stop being sick, I managed to give him little bits of water that he kept down and later in the evening he kept down a little food. He had a good nights sleep and is back to his cheeky self today thankfully.

This morning, I cleaned the flat as it was a complete tip! Felt loads better for doing it. Don’t have to worry about it now.

Just chilled out this afternoon. Went into town and posted something that I’d bought in the sales for my friend. I hope he likes it.

I met my auntie and little cousin Layla, we looked in a few shops, then went to Starbucks for a drink. I gave Layla her Christmas present and she gave me mine. I got socks, a picture of Layla and Β£10. Layla loved her present, I got her a big chocolate coin and a frozen bracelet. We had a look round some more shops. I bought Scrappy a new lead, its so cute, red with stars. I bought myself a new top with the money my auntie gave me. I also bought some BIG sparklers for tonight. So yeah pretty much my day. It’s been good so far and I’m feeling positive.

So 2014…It’s been a hell of a year. I’ve met some amazing people, I’ve done some pretty awesome things, like camping, I got Mr scrappy home, I went to see Dolly Parton, I’ve had some amazing times with my wonderful friends. This August marked a whole year since I last self harmed. It’s been a LONG hard journey, but I continue to be self harm free 16 months on. I am so proud of myself as I know at one point I thought I would never stop. So yeah self harm recovery is possible.

I think I’ve really grown as a person this year. I feel like I’ve changed for the better. I feel more stable, more settled sense of self, calmer, more able to maintain relationships, more confident in everything, in myself, my actions. I feel like a better person. I hope that others would agree.

Mental health wise I’ve had my highs and my lows, but I’ve always got through it.

My physical health hasn’t been the greatest this year. My methotrexate tablets made me very sick for about a year, but now I am on injections and doing so much better. I have my aches and pains, coughs and colds. But I am so blessed not to have been too ill this past year. I have great doctors that always take good care of me. I’m blessed to be under there care. I am also very grateful to have the NHS.

So yeah 2014 has left a big mark on my life. I’ve had good times, bad times. But overall its been great.

I am blessed to have Miss Marley moo cat, Foxy girl and Scrappy do. I couldn’t imagine my life without them. I can honestly say that they have enriched my life no end. They are the reason I get up every day, they are the reason for still being. They make me get out and meet other dogs and people, when we go for walks. They help keep me motivated. I love them will every fibre of my being.

I am also blessed to have such amazing friends too. They have been so kind, so generous, thoughtful, supportive. Just totally amazing. To think back over this year and all the things my friends have done for me, the things we did etc. Is just overwhelming. I am so lucky to have such lovely people in my life. I am truly blessed.

Another year gone by without my dad. He is always in my heart. I miss you dad and I love you so much more. I wish you were here to share this life with me. But I know you are watching over me. I hope I’ve made you proud this year. R.I.P The most amazing man I’ve ever met ❀ Love you dad ❀

I hope you all keep safe tonight and have a great time πŸ™‚

Happy New Year, I hope you’ve all had a great year and I hope there are many more to come πŸ™‚

2015 onwards and upwards baby!

Β This is my jar FULL of every single good thing I did this year. From big things like seeing Dolly Parton, so just hanging out with friends. Tomorrow I am going to look all through them. Remember all the amazing times. Such a great thing to do πŸ™‚

Peace out


See you in 2015! ❀ ❀ ❀

I need sleep..

The last few days have been long. I need a proper sleep. Think I will post properly tomorrow if I have time.

I’ve been alright. Just not slept much.

My poor baby scrappy had a really bad reaction to his worming tablet and was incredibly sick. He seems to be a little better this evening.

I just need a good rest

Peace out


Over organised!

I think I am becoming nocturnal again…It’s 12:40 am and I am only just sitting down to relax and write. I am probably going to have another late night. I need to break this routine though.

Last night….well should I say this morning. I didn’t get to sleep till about 5 am. And I woke up 6 hours later…Urgh. I let scrappy out for a wee, I had a drink and we all went back to bed for a few hours.

Can’t remember what time I got up again. I think it was about midday. I sat about a bit, watching the tv. I eventually got showered and dressed. I took my lil pups across the road for a run about. I dropped them home and headed back into town.

Went to Argos and got myself a new little table to go next to the sofa, to fill the gap where the fish tank was. Now I don’t have a big coffee table in the middle of the lounge, that will do so people can put their drinks on etc. I had lunch in Burger King, as I realised it was 3:30 pm and I’d not eaten… So yeah treated myself. I got Β£15 left of my Christmas money. Not sure what I am going to do with it yet. I may get Lego Batman 2, so I will have all 3 games. Or I may get another Animal top….Will have a look in town tomorrow.

Got in and put the little table together. It only took half an hour. I’ve already got one like it and its pretty simple. Got a blister on my finger though from screwing all the bits in. Just chilled out for a bit, but my mind was busy with things I wanted to do.

With the new year coming I like to sort out what I need to get rid of, sell or throw away. So I sat and went through ALL my paper work. I was left with a massive pile. I really need to shred it before I throw it away…I was going to sit and cut it all up, but my head had other ideas.

I made myself some dinner before starting on my big task. It was ok….I wasn’t really hungry though.

I grabbed the baby wipes and went on a mission to dust all my shelves and Lego sets. I moved a few about as well. I wedged the bedroom door open and Miss Marely moo has been in here exploring as she’s not usually allowed in here. So all that dusting took a while, but my Lego looks better and are a bit more organised now.

Went into my bedroom, put a film on and sat and went through my pj draw, sock draw and boxer draw. As they were all overflowing lol. I had lots to throw out.

Then I went through my wardrobe. I sorted through all the tops and jeans that I wear and don’t wear or ones that just need throwing out. I had one t-shirt that still had tags on! I threw a few tops out, I got lots of tops to sell and one pair of jeans to sell. Everything is all nicely hung up again. I then went through my shoes. I got a pair of boots and shoes that I don’t wear, the rest I wear all the time. I went through all my hoodies and jumpers…as I have a few lol. I only had one to sell. But I did sort them out, hung them up etc. I have so much stuff! Bagged up the stuff that I was throwing out. I gave new homes to all the bits I got for Xmas. Put my new badges on my bag.

Sat and took pictures of everything I wanted to sell. I then went and got my laptop and sat on the bed. I uploaded all the pics to a selling site on fb and it took ages to write out the details and prices. I then sat and uploaded everything to a site called gumtree…that took SO long. But I hope it will be worth it. If nothing comes of it I think I will donate it all to the youth hostel I used to live in.

It’s taken me about an hour to sit and write. I’m starting to get a bit tired now. I think I will get myself to bed soon. I need to take the pups out first.

Feeling good. My head is just buzzing with things I want to do/get, but I got to wait till I get paid on Tues. My mind has been so busy lately. I thought it was just the Christmas period….I suppose my brain is preparing for the new years….Suppose if I get rid of extra baggage physically I will be able to do the same mentally…. I don’t know. I just want to be able to be truly at peace. Just be able to rest.

Physically I’m ok. Just the usual pain. Still feeling run down, but with my mind racing about I’ve not had much chance to rest.

Tomorrow I don’t have much planned….Although I do need to sort out the paper work. I need to destroy it some how…..may have to sit and rip it up. I want to go into town and have a look for a new top and maybe have lunch in burger king πŸ™‚

Hopefully my brain will let me sleep peacefully and not wake up after 6 hours sleep.

My two pups are snuggled up with each other…they are BEAUTIFUL and Miss Marley moo is snuggled up on the end of the bed ❀

Peace out


And its over….

Well its finally over! phew. I can breathe and let the mask slip a little.

So just a regular Saturday. I think I woke up fairly early again. Around 8 am. But I came into the lounge and went back to sleep on the sofa for a few hours. I was still really tired, I don’t know why I wake up so early and then fall back to sleep on the sofa…its so annoying that I have to have disrupted sleep nearly every day.

I had a sandwich for lunch and sat watching a bit of tv. Eventually I got up off my ass and cleaned the flat and took the Christmas decorations down. Fox has still got a bit of a bad stomach and yeah all over the sofa…gah! So gross to clean up! Least when scrappy goes in the house, he goes in the bathroom where I can clean it up. But I couldn’t be mad, when you gotta go you gotta go I suppose. So took their food up again for a few hours to starve them. The flat feels naked now the decorations are gone. Thought I would do it today as I was in the cleaning mood….that might not happen again πŸ˜‰ lol. Felt good though, always does when the flat is nice and tidy.

Had a shower and got dressed. Wore my new t-shirt today. Took the pups across the road for a wee and a little run. Bloody hell it was FREEZING! The temperature has really dropped the last few days. Poor foxy was trying to poop, but nothing was really coming out. I dropped the little rascals home and with the tree’s away I didn’t have to worry about putting them away from Mr scrappy doo.

Went out to see what the game shop was like. It was busy…but the game I wanted was Β£10 cheaper today! SO glad I waited! I bought the new Lego Batman 3 game πŸ˜€ They had ran out of the exclusive Robin figures though….bit gutted, but I don’t really like Robin. After that shop I went to Asda as I needed some bits and bobs. Then came home. By the time I had cleaned, took pups out, went to the shops the day was nearly over lol. I felt like I’ve taken forever to do anything today, because I keep forgetting what I’m doing….my mind just goes blank and I end up just standing or sitting staring into space…Completely forgetting my train of thought. It’s just so frustrating, I just don’t feel like I am in control of my thoughts. By the time I got home it was about 4:30 pm.

Just spent this evening in front of the idiot box…there was not much on really. Been watching things I’ve recorded. Been sat here thinking about what I want to do tomorrow. Want to do it all now, but I know I need to relax this evening, because once I start I know it will turn into a big job.

Had my dinner, sausage and mash πŸ™‚ yum.

Oh man its taking so long to write, because I keep zoning out and struggling to remember what the hell happened.

I put the fish tank up for free, as I’d been putting up for sale for how much it cost me to set up, as my ex D bought it for me, but it cost me a bit to set up. But anyway within about an hour and a half someone had emailed me and he came over to pick it up! So glad its gone. One less thing to worry about. That corner is empty now, but I’m going to get a little table to go next to the sofa on that side.

It’s 1:20 am here. I need to hang up the washing and take the pups for a wee before I can go to bed. Feeling so tired and run down. My mood has crashed a little, but I think that’s because I’ve been so busy and not really had much time to be me, just time to do nothing. And with all the hype of Christmas as well. It’s kind of an anticlimax when its all over and done with. I’m glad I made such an effort though, but yeah, back to normal now. Just the new year shit to get through.

The plan tomorrow is to sleep and sort through all my clothes..again! That will probably lead to sorting through the rest of shit in the flat.

Fingers crossed I get my new Lego set delivered on Mon! I am SO excited to get it. I may save it till the weekend to put it together. I want to be totally present when putting it together and enjoy it. My last big set I put together I put on my favourite film, had my favourite drink and some nice snacks. So it made it a totally awesome time. That took me 6 and a half hours. It was taxing but worth it. So yeah I want a day where I can do that and totally enjoy the moment. This will probably take longer as it has more pieces and its pretty much ALL black lol. It probably seems a bit sad to some people, but its my hobby πŸ™‚

Now its nearly 2 am…I need to get myself off the laptop after this. I’m tired. Ooooh may do myself hot chocolate when I get in from taking the pups out.

Anyway I am off.

Peace out


Boxing day fun 2014

Boxing day fun πŸ™‚

Even though I was tired last night I was still up early gah! I only woke up to pee. So I let scrappy out to pee on the balcony, I had breakfast and went back to bed for a few hours. I really didn’t want to get up lol.

But it was 11:40 am…so I did really need to get my butt up. My best friend H text me to say she was up and getting ready, so I showered and dressed and took the pups for a wee all in a hour. Then we met in town.

We went and had a look around the shops, we only went into the ones that each of us wanted too. She bought me a new batman jumper bless her, she’s so good to me. I bought myself two tops with the voucher mum gave me. I wanted to get Lego Batman 3…but we looked in the shop and was like NOPE! The line was nearly out the door…Yeah fuck that! So we went to burger king for lunch instead lol. Came home after that. Pretty good shopping trip. H really spoilt herself which was good πŸ™‚ and I got some nice tops. Will maybe get my game at the weekend…or just wait till the kids go back so its not so manic.

Came to mine and chilled out, H ordered herself some bits online, she helped me sort out using my amazon voucher, so I ordered myself an adventure time t-shirt. Just watched tv, played with the pups and just chilled out. Was really nice. I felt like going for a sleep, but I want to sleep properly tonight.

I cooked us a nice dinner, well H ate it all so I’m assuming it was good lol. I did myself too much. We had sausages, cheesy mash, roast carrots and onion and onion gravy. It was a beaut πŸ™‚

We chilled out for a bit, H wanted to get a early night, so she left about 8:15pm. I want an early night as I am tired…but I want to actually sleep longer then 7 am. So I don’t want to go just yet.

I bought myself the 1st Hunger Games book on my Kindle, so I may read that tomorrow.

The plan tomorrow is to sleep, going to take the Christmas decorations down as well Xmas is over now lol. Plus its one less thing to put away when I leave the pups. Maybe look to see if the game shop is less busy. Weather is meant to be crap so probably wont go far with the pups. Just probably relax, maybe go to asda see what they got on sale and just chill out.

Mentally feeling happy, I’m just exhausted….which knocks my mood a bit, but I’m not depressed, just tired in every sense of it.

Β A snap of my babies yesterday πŸ™‚

Peace out

Batman ❀

Christmas day 2014


The BIG day…It’s finally here and very nearly over.

Even though I spent Christmas day alone, it’s actually been really lovely. My previous post about life/Christmas is what you make it is really true. I’ve been planning my day for about a month now and I am so pleased that it’s been so nice. Hard work pays off. You can’t sit about and wait for good things to happen, you have to create these good things.

My day started with a bit of a restless nights sleep, but I think that’s because I had a late-ish nap yesterday. I was up at 7 am because I needed to pee. But I resisted the urge to rip all the presents open as I would be bored the rest of the day. So I snuggled up on the sofa and feel back to sleep for a bit.

Woke up about 10 am, I had my lucky charms for breakfast in my new Batman bowl πŸ™‚ YUM the ONLY way to start Christmas is with a lovely bowl of SUGAR! HA. I then got out all our presents, the animals and mine. I helped the animals open all of theirs…wow I’d forgotten how much I’d got them all. I think the dogs have enough treats for the next 3 months lol. Cleaned up all the paper and sat and played with the animals and their toys. Gave them a few treats. I think their favourite one was the bubbles for the bubble machine lol! Love watching my babies play.

I sat and opened the presents the animals got me πŸ˜‰ hehe. Even though I knew what they were, I was still excited. I then opened the gifts I got from friends. S and her husband M got me Minion Loom bands. Z got me some REALLY awesome bits. And my friend K has WG like myself and she sent me a massive box of treats, wow she spoilt me. I loved it ALL! So many loom bands and just awesome bits πŸ™‚

I gave most of my bits new homes…but haven’t finished yet. I had the rest of the cheesy mash I made yesterday for my lunch. Eventually I got my butt up, showered and dressed. With a plan in mind to take the pups for a walk. I noticed that a friend that lives across the road had put up a status about being bored, so I messaged her to see if she wanted to come for a walk and she said yes. So I got myself and the pups ready and went over the road to meet her and we went for a really nice walk.

We were out for about 1 and a half hours. The weather was nice and we saw lots of happy people and happy pups, which is always lovely to see. Scrappy was having great fun chasing his ball, he went for a Christmas swim! Such a beautiful walk, got some lovely pictures. Feeling so so blessed.

Said goodbye to my friend and took the pups home. I rested for a little while, watching tv snuggled up with 2 very tired puppies ❀

I then sorted out my dinner. I pre-heated the oven. I cut up carrots and and onion, put oil and mixed herbs in the baking tray and put it in the oven to heat up. I then put in the veg and the prepared turkey joint and put it all in the oven. Half way through I added the roast pots, near the end I made the gravy and a lovely cheese sauce (from scratch) I was watching Batman Returns while this was going on.

Finally sat down to eat and it was so scrummy if I do say so myself. I am the master at cheese sauce πŸ˜€

Chilled out after stuffing myself with my nice dinner. Watched some films and ate chocolates. Sat on the floor and played with the pups for a bit. Scrappy was still wanting to play fetch lol. I hid his ball, so he’d play with his new toys….but he was happier when I was throwing them about lol, he’s so funny. Foxy was sat in her bed away from the madness bless her as she did get accidently hit a few times with some of the toys and scrappy crashed into her too. Poor girl, just wants some peace. Even Miss Marley moo was watching us play and came down to join in with me an scrappy.

There was nothing much on tv, so I’ve put on Batman Forever! I really forgot just how great these films are πŸ˜€ Just thought I would pop onto here as I am just relaxing.

Myself and my best friend are going shopping tomorrow for the boxing day sales, so that will be really nice to see her and go shopping!

After weeks of work I can honestly say that I’ve had a really lovely Christmas ❀ Myself and the animals have been truly spoiled. I am so blessed and so grateful ❀

Went to see my daddy this afternoon on my walk with the pups. Such a lovely view, I now know why I was drawn to scatter you here. I walk the dogs here as often as I can and always stop and chat to you. I know you are watching over me. I hope I’ve made you proud today and every day. I love you loads dad and I miss you so much more. Happy Christmas dad you will forever be in my heart ❀

Peace out


Christmas Eve 2014 :) <3

Christmas eve and I am a excited boy!

Although my morning got off to a pretty gross start….. My poor scrappy has a bad tummy….and yup he pooped in the bed…YUCKY! So I stripped off the effected area and he even got my jeans. I washed it all off in the shower before I put it in the washing machine. I took the pups food up, going to starve scrappy for a bit.

I can’t remember if I had any breakfast…I don’t think I did. I got myself up and cleaned the flat as it was a tip. Even though if felt like it took hours, it didn’t really take that long. Just as I jumped in the shower, my buzzer went. TYPICAL! lol. So I jumped out the shower, buzzed him up and grabbed the towel…I think I’d scare him off if I answered naked lol! But I was really happy as it was my package that my friend had sent me. I inboxed her to say it had come and I jumped back into the shower. I got dressed into a batman top and my jeans.

Got myself and the pups ready to go across the road for a lil run and a wee. It was really nice out, the sun was shining and it wasn’t that cold really. A nice Christmas eve day.

We came back and I had a little look at my package and just WOW am I a lucky boy to have such a great friend! There’s loads in there. All wrapped in Batman paper πŸ˜€ The pets even got presents as well. I opened my cards from her and one from her mum. There was one thing unwrapped, which was a box of loom bands πŸ™‚ yay. So so happy. I can’t wait to open mine tomorrow.

Then my family came over, my mum, step dad, nan and grandad, my brother, his gf and two boys Jack and baby Leo. It was really nice actually. I’d put out some sweets and crisps. Jack was having fun playing with the pups. We all opened our presents and everyone liked what I got them. Jack was so happy when he opened his, bless him. I got him Mr Bean boxset. So yeah I’m happy everyone loved their bits. Nan and Grandad gave me money, my step dad gave me chocolates, my mum actually gave me something that I LOVE! A Β£20 Animal voucher, a Batman bowl and a Batman towel that is also a cape! πŸ™‚ so awesome. My brother and his gf got my a game voucher. Really happy with everything I got. So blessed, such a happy boy.

After they left I cleaned up the wrapping paper that was everywhere. I sat down and put on a film…but then felt hungry, so I went over to Burger King to get my lunch. I came back and settled back on the sofa, with my lunch, pepsi and the box of quality streets ❀ perfect afternoon ❀ After that I put the tv back on and snuggled up on the sofa with my babies and had a sleep for an hour. Ah I’ve not had an afternoon nap in ages! It was lush.

My favourite film was on this evening! A Muppets Christmas Carol πŸ˜€ Eeeeek, love it.

After the film, I opened my Christmas eve presents for myself and the animals πŸ™‚ even though I knew what it all was, it was still exciting.

I wasn’t really hungry, but I made myself cheesy mash for dinner. It was yummy.

I then opened the presents from my friend, for the animals. Only because I have bought them so much for tomorrow. Scrappy was excited with his treats and he was sat ripping up wrapping paper lol. I cleaned up the paper.

This evening we have been relaxing, watching films on tv and eating chocolates πŸ™‚ YUM.

Christmas eve has been a good one. I’m pleased it went well.

Mentally I am feeling ok, just a bit drained though. Think my mood has crashed a bit after being so busy and manic the last few weeks. I think I need a good nights sleep to get me back on track.

Physically I’ve been feeling less pain as I’ve been trying to take my pain killers on a more regular basis, so I am grateful for such relief.

I wish you all a Wonderful Christmas, may it bring you peace and happiness ❀

Much love

Peace out


BIG catch up from a very busy batboy!

Well I thought I had better catch up…I’ve been a busy lil batboy! But I’ve been a happy one πŸ™‚

Sat – I had a chilled morning. I met a friend off the bus, we grabbed lunch and she spent a few hours at mine. Not seen her for a few months. Her resolution for the new year is to catch up with friends more often, so that will be nice πŸ™‚ I took the pups across the road for a play for half hour. Had a pretty chilled out evening.

Sun – L and the boys came over late morning. She brought us all lunch πŸ™‚ YUM! I am totally obsessed with Burger Kings cheesy chilli bites and chips πŸ˜€ yum! We had lunch, then the craziness of unwrapping presents happened! Scrappy loved it! As did the boys. Was such a great day, playing with toys, making gingerbread and watching films. L got me batman slipper, batman hair and shower gel and a nice chocolate Christmas tree, which was yum. Both me and the pups were shattered when they were all gone. Good day though.

Mon – L had messaged me in the morning asking if I was busy as she wanted to take Harvey to the 6D cinema but he wouldn’t go on it unless I came lol. So I got myself up fed, showered and dressed and took the pups out for a wee and run. Then headed out to her. Ended up having a really good time, even though I did really need a chill day. We went on the Santa sleigh one, which was really good. Harvey wanted me to take him on the dinosaur one, which he loved but it made him jump lol! Then L took him on a car one. He was so happy that he’d done it. Bless him, brave boy. We went for lunch at Burger King…again haha. Had a look around a few shops. Then went for a walk in the gardens as they have all these little sensory sheds you can play in. I then came home, had something to eat and chilled for a little. Then got myself and the pups ready and went to a cafe called Flirt with the pups and met some peeps from the trans group, so that was nice to spend a few hours relaxing, as our next group isn’t until the 5th Jan. I got home and I was SO tired. But I wanted to wait up to see if I got paid so I could order myself a Lego set πŸ˜€ Batman’s Tumbler and needed to pay my Sky bills. So yeah got all that sorted just gone midnight, then ended up sleeping very well.

Tues – So We are now on today. So for some reason I was up early…at 8 am. I didn’t really need to be up. Sat on the sofa eating gingerbread things we made. I did put a load of laundry on. I started to nod off, so I set an alarm so I didn’t over sleep. I got showered and dressed and then took the pups across the road for a wee and a run. Chilled out for a little.

I headed out as M who runs the group was kindly picking me up to take me to the group social. We went to a pub, which was really nice. We all ate and just had fun chatting. I had a proper dinner so I didn’t need to each much in the evening. While at the meal, H my best friend text to see what I was up too as she was in town, so I said I wouldn’t be long.

I met H and I had to nip to the sweet shop to pick something up that a friend had dropped off for me. Had a little chat with S.

Came back to the flat, no destruction and no pee or poop! Woohoo! We had a little time to kill as H wanted to go see the new Hunger Games film. I’ve not seen the 1st 2 and I’ve not read the books, but thought I’d see what it was like. So I got the dogs ready and we took them across the road for a lil run and wee. Dropped them back and we headed out again.

We saw The mockingjay part one and I actually really enjoyed it. I didn’t think I was going to as I’ve not read the books or see the other films, but I managed to catch on with what it was about and yeah really liked it. After we went to….yes Burger King haha I am obsessed! Had a bit of time to wait for the bus, so we had a little look in Tesco. I got myself Sin City 2 and the Grinch on dvd. Still had some time to spare, so we went to the slots and only I played and doubled what I put in. Went back to the bus stop and some twatty little chavy boy circled us as we sat on the bench, so I got really gobby with him! I was what the fuck are you doing? fuck of fucking prick…haha! I was ready to bang the fucking lil prick right out! H was just sat there she thought it was funny. I’ve become a LOT more vocal over the years haha. Comes with confidence I suppose.

Finally I got home at 9:45 pm…Ah. I am feeling good but I’m tired. But I needed to get all this out as its all been buzzing in my head. And I know I’ve been missed, which is so lovely.

Tomorrow I have to get up early to clean the flat as its a pit! Lol. I just haven’t had bloody time. My brother, his gf and the two boys are coming over, so is my step dad Β and maybe my mum and nan and grandad too. But they’ve all had colds. Hope they are ok to come, then I don’t have to worry about seeing them lol. I can’t WAIT for tomorrow evening, so I can RELAX! and hopefully have at least xmas day to myself, well most of it. Depends on what is happening for H, but I don’t mind seeing her as it will be relaxing and not stressful like my family lol.

Bring on Christmas! I am happy and excited ❀

Christmas and life in general is totally what you make it. If you feel miserable and do nothing to change that then it will just carry on. Be the change in your own life! YOU ARE IN CONTROL!

Peace out

Batman ❀

NO hate, just LOVE

12:20 am Wednesday morning and I really should be in bed, but I only got home at 11 pm so just need to have some down time. My head is buzzing tonight.

I went through my friends list on facebook. I’ve deleted people I don’t speak too as I have people on there that I went to school with, but we don’t speak, so they have no real need to be on my profile knowing my business. Also I lost respect for a few friends who post such racist intolerant bullshit! There is no need for such hate. So yeah bye bye idiots! I will not tolerate such disgusting behaviour. There is enough hate in the world without people taking their part in perpetuating it.

Mon was a good day, got all my jobs for that day done! I am blessed to live in a country where the government look after those who are incapable of working. Yes it has its flaws etc, but I would probably be dead if I didn’t live in the UK. Anyway I got my warm home benefit, which is a government scheme where if you are on certain benefits then you are entitled to Β£140 to go on your electric. So I am so blessed not to now have to worry about my electric for a few months and I can actually put the heating on without worrying.

I stayed up till gone midnight so I could check that my money had gone in, to sort out getting my food shopping delivered and order a few bits online. Boom! All sorted and don’t need to worry.

Tues has come and gone pretty quick. Been so busy today. I posted my cards, did the last bit of present shopping, dropped some food to my friend and spent the evening with my best friend. It’s been such a good day. It’s now nearly 1 am and my brain is still buzzing! But I need to get myself to bed very soon.

My plan for tomorrow is get my hair cut at 10 am. Clean the flat and do some laundry, finish off the wrapping up. I need to get a box so I can send my friend her present. Hopefully have time to relax. Having my food shopping delivered between 3-4 pm. Then I am going over to see my two friends C and C in the evening πŸ™‚ Sorted.

I just have to pace myself! When I get busy, I tend to get fast and I suppose mimic sort of mania. Just feel like I have to rush through everything just in case I forget something. Just want everything that needs to be done, done! But I know that’s not possible lol, its not just magically going to be done lol. I think I will just stress till all the little bits left to do, are done. But I just have to try and slow myself down, which is so hard.

Anyway I am rambling on again. I need take my pups out and get us all to bed.

Β Just a steampunk kind of boy tonight!

Peace out

Batman ❀