I hate today, it’s a total fucking write off and I cannot wait to get into bed.
My alarm went of at 7 am, as I needed to be in Bournemouth by 10 am. I did my morning stuff to get myself ready to go out and by 8 am my day was totally fucking ruined, by yet another fucking dog walker that doesn’t have a clue about dog behaviour.
This is my FB status I posted this morning, to explain what happened.
I’m really starting to fucking hate taking the pups out and not because of their behaviour but the absolute cunts we come across! Some fucking cunt this morning pushed foxy away from her fucking huge Labrador! Because foxy was barking at him, she wasn’t being aggressive in the slightest, she was wagging her tail wanting to play with him and scrappy was trying to play too. But no apparently my two massive aggressive dogs shouldn’t be off a fucking lead if I can’t control them! No my dog’s aren’t perfect, but my dog’s did fucking nothing other than doing what normal dog’s do. I’m fucking so fucking angry. The fact that she pushed my tiny 3kg dog away like she was about to fucking attack her! Fucking stupid fucking cunt!! I’m shaking I’m so angry!
Yeah I was insanely crazy! How dare she touch my dog like that! It took everything I had not to say anything and not to punch her in the face because that’s all I wanted to do.
So yeah this pretty set me up for a bad day, I just couldn’t let go of this anger and I’m still feeling a bit angry now.
I left the flat at 8:50 am to go get the bus and for some reason poor Foxy was shaking when I left, maybe she picked up on my anger. Anyway I got to the bus station and the first bus that was going to where I needed to be, pulled up but left straight away…Yeah helpful! Then the second bus didn’t even turn up. So I had to hop on a bus that was going near where I needed to get off but not down to exact road like the other buses. By the time the bus left it was half past 9 am and we got stuck in traffic on a roundabout for ages, by the time we got not even half way it was was 9:50 am! So I decided to get off the bus, I didn’t want to walk into a classroom full of people I don’t know being really late! I hate being late with an absolute passion! All this made me even more fucking angry, so it was definitely best I didn’t go because I just wouldn’t be in the right place to get anything from it.
When I got off the bus, I went and had a look in a couple of shops that aren’t in town and don’t go to often. I bought scrappy a new wishbone shaped Kony toy to keep him busy while I’m out.
Got home, played with the pups and gave scrappy his new toy, which he really loved and I knew he would, my boy is all about treats! I rang up the Department of Work and Pensions and started my new claim for Personal Independent Payment, which will take over from my Disability Living Allowance, so they will send me out a form for me to fill in and send back. That is one massive weight off my mind because it’s started now.
Had a nap because I was so other with the day already. I couldn’t do anything else, just needed some time out.
I needed a few bits from the shop, but I ended up coming out with a load of Halloween stuff too. I’ve decided to dress up as Dracula 🙂 I’ve got a cape, make-up blood, fangs and I’ve seen a t-shirt that looks like a shirt that Dracula wears under his cape, so I’m going to order that next week. I need to get myself a fake cane as well. Shopping for Halloween stuff made me feel a bit better.
I was feeling a bit restless and wanted to go and walk the dogs. But I didn’t want to go where we usually do, as it’s busy and I wasn’t in the mood to be dealing with people. Instead I took the dogs up to the heath, where I grew up and it was really nice. Only came across one other dog and dog walker but we saw a few cyclists. It was just so nice to be up and away from the general population of people, just me and the dogs in the sunshine on the heathland 🙂 just what we all needed. I took some really nice pictures too.
I did have a plan this evening and that was to have dinner, do online stuff and clean up. But instead I had dinner, caught up on my online stuff and the cleaning can wait. It’s not that untidy today because I’ve been really keeping on top of the housework because it does effect my mood when its messy. It can wait until Friday when I have a full free day.
Here are some pictures from today