Food Diary – I’m still trying

I keep seeing a advert on TV for Nana’s magic soup. It’s a tesco advert and I thought I’d give it a go. So yesterday I bought all the ingredients and came home and made it and again to my surprise it was really yum and fairly quick and easy to make as well. I had loads left over which, I’ve frozen so I can have in the week.

https://realfood.tesco.com/recipes/nanas-magic-soup.html

^ that’s the link for the recipe and how to cook it.

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^ Picture of the soup

I am trying really hard to try new food, it’s not very consistent and that’s mainly because of my mood. But yeah I am trying really hard to get on top of this food phobia thing.

Peace out

Batman

Health update – New Med Regime – So far So Good

I haven’t posted for a while in detail about my ┬áhealth issues and transition, so as I am sitting at the laptop downloading pictures and stuff I thought I would write about what’s been going on in a bit more detail.

In January I finally had my first appointment with my new Rheumatologist in Southampton hospital and it went really well and he was super nice. I saw him again on 2nd March, which was also my birthday lol. He started me on a new med called Mycophenolate 500mgs twice a day. It’s going ok so far, it’s caused a bit of insomnia but I am hoping that will sort itself out. I got back in 4 months time, which is good. I also got to have monthly bloods again now I am back on an immunosuppressant drug, which I’m used too having been on Methotrexate.

This week I saw my new ENT doc at Southampton and he gave me Neil med Sinus rinse, Flixonase nose drops and a 8 week course of Doxycycline to try and get on top of this sinus infection, before we talk about any surgical intervention. Which I understand, he’s got protocols to follow. I really hope this all works out and we don’t have to go down the surgical route. I got a follow up in June.

Mental health stuff is going ok-ish, just still struggling with dissociation, depersonalisation and derealisation. But I am finding that taking pics and posting on social media is helping me stay in the moment. Also I am finding things to do to keep me busy to help keep me in the moment, like playing on the PS4, Lego, playing with the dogs, arts and crafts etc I am really trying my best so I don’t have to go back to the CMHT.

On Thursday I saw the Endocrinologist at the gender identity clinic in London and he said my health issues and medication will not interfere with my medical transition, especially starting Testosterone. Which is absolutely amazing news, so so happy about that. The only thing he did say is that I’m overweight..yup already knew that lol! but he did also say that my last blood results said that my cholesterol was a bit high, so before starting T I’ve got to get my weight down otherwise I will be more at risk of a heart attack. Which is fine, I know I need to lose weight, I’m not happy with my weight as is it right now. My next appointment isn’t until June but I’ve been put on the cancellation list, fingers crossed it will be sooner. My next appointment will be hopefully where I get the yes to start T, so its all super exciting.

So yeah everything is pretty much going ok, I’m happy with my new med regime and I really hope it improves my health.

Peace out

Batman

 

Food diary – Another update

Once again I’ve been a bit slack on a few things but I’ve been really struggling with disassociation and binge eating. I’ve been trying so hard to get on top of it all and I’ve been stressing out so much. Stressing out has been making everything worse and I’ve been eating so much until I feel so so sick and my thoughts and memories are so disorganised, disjointed and just strange and unreal.

The last few days I’ve been trying to get back on track with reading and meditating daily and I have felt a little more settled.

I was watching a TV show called This Morning and this lady was on and she was cooking Prawn and Chicken Jambalaya. I was sat thinking that it looked really nice, well apart from prawns as I don’t like them, so I decided that I was going to make it for dinner tonight.

I’ve been doing my food shopping as and when I need things, I was finding I was getting 2 weeks worth of shopping and not eating everything I bought and had a lot of wasted food. Even though shopping as and when takes up more time and energy, its a bit more cost effective as I’m not wasting food.

Today along with the chicken jambalaya, I also tried some green olives and I can safely say that I am not a fan! They were gross, even the dogs didn’t like them lol. But I am pleased I tried them.

So this evening I cooked the chicken jambalaya, it took me a little longer then the lady on TV said it should take lol but it turned out so well and I really really enjoyed it and I was mega surprised as well. Its not usually something I would eat, mainly because its a bit spicy but I am so pleased I just went for it and made it. I even have enough left for 2 more dinners, which is awesome.

This probably isn’t the most well written blogs I’ve ever done because I am struggling to organise my thoughts right now but I’ve tried my best. As usual I’m not going to say if I’ll try something new next week as I think that’s just a bit too much to ask from myself right now. My main goal is to keep on top of the binge eating because if I cannot do it alone I’m probably going to have to seek help because it cannot continue.

Peace out

Batman