Today I had my 2nd testosterone injection and I did it by myself, the nurse guided me through it. It was pretty simple to do and didn’t hurt at all. Feels good to have had my second injection and I’ve got all I need to do my it at home myself next time.
I don’t really have a lot to write today, I’ll add the link the my YouTube video in a separate blog. Just over all feeling pretty good but tired, I need to get an early night tonight as I didn’t sleep very well last night.
I’m looking forward to seeing the changes from this injection over the next 4 weeks. I’m hoping my voice will start changing more.
^ 4 weeks on T
^ Stuff ready for my next injection in 4 weeks time
^ Sustanon (testosterone)
^ Happy boy with my testosterone
I’ve been on and off the laptop all day doing one thing or another and I’m still on here just messing around, googling random things, as ya do and looking up stuff.
It’s been a pretty good start to the week, I had all intentions of getting up at a reasonable time but it didn’t end up that way. I woke up about 7 am and my hips and legs were so painful, painful enough to wake me up. I managed to lay in bed until I was rudely woken up by the workmen, although our intercom and the lock on the front door to the communal door is now fixed.
I got up and had some breakfast with the intention of getting the housework done afterwards but my hips and legs were hurting so much it just zaps my energy so much. So I feel asleep on the sofa all snuggled up with the dogs. After that it still took me a while to get myself off the sofa, I did eventually get the housework done and all the other bits I do on a Monday, like doing my med box up for the week.
As I said I’ve spent most of the day on and off the laptop doing one thing or another but I’ve needed this time to just rest and take care of myself and my body definitely needed a rest.
I’m so excited for tomorrow, I’m getting my second testosterone injection in the afternoon. I can’t wait to see the changes from this injection over the next 4 weeks. This is literally the best decision I have ever made, whilst everything else may not be where I want it to be, this is the only thing in my life that is just perfect, its exactly where I want to be, exactly who I want to be.
My mood has been pretty settled, I’ve just been feeling good and that’s a feeling I’m starting to get used too. I’ve not noticed any drastic changes in my mood which is good, as myself and the endocrinologist were concerned that it could cause me to have a manic episode. In the past when I’ve had a steroid injection for my physical health issues, I’ve had trouble with insomnia and a manic episode after the injection and as the testosterone is steroid based that’s why I was concerned. But luckily so far I’ve had not had a issue, I have had a few nights where its taken me ages to get to sleep but I wouldn’t class that as insomnia. I am hopeful it stays this way, insomnia and manic episodes aren’t fun and I don’t really want to up the Quetiapine as I don’t want to ruin my weight loss.
Talking of weight loss, I’ve got 8 1/2 pounds to go until target. I hope I can reach this before Christmas, I’m going to give it my best. I really want to succeed at this, I know I can do it. When I started it was super easy, as the months have gone its gotten a bit harder and I’ve gone off track a tad over the last few weeks. But I am determined to get to target.
Anyway I shall update with a transition post tomorrow after my T injection! woohoo!
Week 3 on T video blog, I talk about loads in this video as I’m feeling really good about myself
Week 2 on T of my video blog, I remember this being long as I was ranting about something or other.
Week 1 on T video, I don’t remember much of what I said but I don’t like listening back to myself.
So following my last post (3 weeks on T) I’ve had a shower and I’m feeling all fresh I decided to upload the videos I’ve made so far just of me talking about all things transition related and just my life in general.
This is the one I did the day before my first T shot. I’m going to do a comparison video of all my videos at some point. For now I’ll just be posting them unedited
Today is week 3 of being on T and I’m due my next injection next Tuesday.
I am feeling pretty good right now, I feel a peacefulness inside that I haven’t felt before and it feels good. I feel more confident in myself too, like I feel just more myself then ever before and it feels good.
The only new physical changes I have noticed this week is that my chest feels and looks a bit flatter which is cool as I am unable to bind my chest. My chest looks a bit less noticeable, that makes the gender dysphoria a bit easier to deal with. I’ve got tons of spots coming up and I have a huge volcano of a spot on the back of my neck, its a bit sore and I’m trying hard not to pick them all.
Also been super hungry this week, like I just want to eat all the time. However today I haven’t felt as hungry, it does come and go. I have put on a pound or too, that’s partly my fault for eating all the naughty things I’ve been craving and not sticking to the slimming world plan. I need to get re-motivated and get back on eating properly
Anyway only a short one this week because I don’t feel like I have much to say as not much has been going on this week. Plus I really want to have a shower tonight, as I feel super greasy and achy.
Last note, always be your true self, be strong, be brave, you totally got this
Well I didn’t get to update yesterday as I didn’t have to opportunity to sit down and write and I was going to write earlier on today but ended up sorting out things on the 2 Facebook groups that I created. One of them is getting really popular now and it has nearly 2000 members, which is just absolutely incredible. I didn’t think my little group I created 2 years ago would even take off let alone have nearly 2000 members in it. But now it is the size it is, it takes up a bit of time to monitor what’s going on.
Right now I don’t want to write for too long because I have to up early tomorrow as I have a safeguarding training course, that I have to do as part of my voluntary work for Dorset Mind. I have to be there at 9:15 am and on the bus it will take about an hour but the train wont take as long. There has been disruptions on the train lines so I’ll have to wait and see in the morning to see if there will be any delays. So right now I don’t know how I’m going to get there yet.
I really need to try and get an early night as recently I’ve seen to have fallen into the habit of getting to bed past midnight and then not waking up until 9-10 am. Then I struggle to get myself going because I feel all groggy and tired. I need to get back into a better routine in general, I was doing well but I’m not sure where things got messed up.
Anyway on to the transition update, so it has been two weeks since I had my first testosterone injection and I’ve started to notice some changes. The first change and the most noticeable one is my face is super greasy, as it my neck, chest and shoulders. It’s so gross and I swear I never had this issue as a teenager, I’ve been super lucky and always had good skin. So this maybe a small change but for me its pretty huge as I don’t remember going through this in my first puberty. I kinda feel like I’ve got sun cream on, especially on my chest and shoulders as it feels a bit sticky, which doesn’t feel good but its a good sign that things are changing and something I’m sure I’ll get used too.
The other change is my voice, its a really minor change but my best friend said I sound like I have a sore throat when I talk, even though I don’t. My throat doesn’t hurt when I talk but it does certainly feel different, although that’s hard to articulate in what way my throat feels different it just does.
I don’t think my face looks any different though, other then the shine from the grease that’s always on it lol.
How do I feel? Um I’m not overly sure really because I’ve had a lot of non transition stuff happening, so its a bit difficult to tell. But over all I feel happy and it feels good to finally be on a path where I feel like I know where I’m heading, I know there’s a start and a end so to speak. It just feels right and I feel like I am finally doing something right and hopefully at the end of it all I’ll be a better version of myself.
^ two weeks on T picture
But yeah that’s it for this blog, I need to get stuff ready for my course tomorrow.