Dinner date and movie with myself tonight.
Something I’ve not done in a while, been too caught up with the negative stuff in my head, I forgot to love and take care of myself. Trying my best to get back on track.
I also did something that was huge for me this week… I asked for help and close friends will know this, it’s something I do very rarely and avoid where possible.
But in August I’m finally getting top surgery done 🙂 and I’m going to need help during recovery from more then one person. As it’s a lot to ask from one person, so I was brave and created a group chat. I was so scared that I would be rejected and everyone would be too busy to help but to my surprise everyone was just amazing and everyone was so happy for me and more then happy to help.
It’s such a huge relief to know I have people around me that love and care for me. I always knew I had friends but I’d convinced myself I wasn’t good enough to have real friends and eventually if you tell yourself something long enough you believe it.
I need to work on my self esteem and self worth, this is definitely going to help 🙂 I’m not as lonely as I thought I was.
I’m going to try and trust more and open my heart more. I’m always standing in the way of myself, I need to move out of my way.